I'm a 6 on the outside,
a 10 on the inside.

I appreciate that all the responses here have been kind & considerate.

Originally posted by Foxpile:

Relatable.

Thank you for understanding. I hope you are doing well.

Originally posted by Grand Matriarch Todd of Sim City:

Not for the sake of being kind but for others to know your still human and you should at least care but why should i tell you what to do

We all need to be reminded sometimes of what we should or should not do,
at least when it comes to bringing harm to others.
I like to believe kindness is the best trait any human can have.

Originally posted by Grand Matriarch Todd of Sim City:

We've all been there buddy but the more you become bitter and less kind no one wants to be your friend but that's entirely up to you

Yeah, no shit.
But being kind for the sake of being kind,
and getting nothing in return for many years?
Not even friends?
Hard to care after awhile.

Originally posted by You-are-Not-Alone:

Perhaps it's worth exploring what you want from friends and searching for those qualities in people if you feel used.

I'd like friends that care for who I am,
but that'd require humans being capable of wanting to BE friends
with an 'unusual' human in the first place.
Have not met such a person yet.
I don't want to go into detail about my shitty issues, sorry. Just want to vent.

Originally posted by YuukiRito:

Are these interactions avoidable? Are they personal?

If I keep myself isolated, they become less personal and more avoidable.
At the cost of my sanity and happiness, but oh well.

I am struggling.
I would rather be kind,
but when every human interaction fills me with more contempt,
it's difficult to want to care anymore.
I am no saint, but I can only take so much crap.