Well, this might be the end to happy times for a while.

I have (had, I don't know) a dear friend who has been going (has gone) through some tough times over the last 6 months. She's smoked, drank, had sex, gotten high, sent nudes, and generally fucked up her life a lot. It's been my self-appointed duty to keep her happy and, well, alive. She's been on the brink of suicide for months, and also in and out of rehab.

Did I mention she's 14?

Though I haven't had physical contact with her in a long time (She lives in Alabama, I'm in Washington), I try to skype message her as often as possible. This time, though, I think it's done. She was really upset, and she cut the conversation off on me before I really had a chance to help her get through her new problems (and recurring ones). Jesus Christ, I felt like I'd been defusing a bomb.

The worst part is, I don't know if she did it. I don't know if I ever will. But I'm never going to give up on her.

Never.

So please, guys, all I want to say is this. Value the ones around you. No life is ever trivial, no life should be wasted. Fight your hardest to keep them around. Please. I can't give my strength to the whole world, and that is a frightening prospect. So please, help me do it. Cheer up everyone you know, make sure they know they're special. Every life is worth fighting for.