SO MASTERS DEGREE IN MUSIC OR MUSIC THERAPY... CHOOSE BITCH .... CHOOSE!!!!!

WHY COULDN'T I HAVE JUST HAD A FRONT HOLE AND BEEN BORN PRETTY INSTEAD WHY? ALL I WANT TO DO IS FIND A MAN TO MAKE HAPPY WHY WHY AM I SO FUCKING UGLY WHY?????

And why am I even trying to undo my arrogance? My brain is literally the best fucking brain on this planet and no one will employ me why??????

My last store I worked at shuts down ... Everyone follows me around like lost puppies from my confident perfect speech even before I was assertive and just arrogant. No1 most employable on the cripple list at the DWP. top customer service and shit, 'Omg wow, how do you speak so good? ... The first day you walked in every manager loved you right away' ....

Fucking savant language and music brain but everyone still hates my face WHY????

Even when I was arrogant, I melted people just by talking alone. Undo assertive, delete assertive.

My autistic mask mode is legendary. But when the mask is off I cry in my corner.

Theres a purpose to this thread, I send it to any possible future employer, whether to do about my music or not and see just how unemployable I remain ... Seriously fuck humans and fuck liberalism.

Welp when my own songs no longer calm me down nothing else will ... Oh maybe that was its purpose all along.

8 different antidepressants tried. Every herbal crap. Currently constantly jacked on nicotine pouches, NOTHING WORKS ...

WHERE CAN I FIND A KILOGRAMME OF COCAINE TO SNORT WHERE? cries in pure unbridled meltdown mode.

I need to chill out with my own words ...

Your smile shines just as bright as a wandering star firing across the ebony night, a soul so perfect synced in time, resonant as whistling chimes ....

No wait, that didn't help cos it contained the word ebony ... DESTROY ALL EBONY.

Like fucking hell I literally fucking seduce neo natsee white supremacists online into wanting to visit and fuck me but IRL no one will even look at me lol wtf lol.

Priority extermination target group 1 - White Liberals.

2 - Any human that looks like its been baked in the sun or higher.

I've never been able to actually cut myself before, only bash my head against a wall or cry in a corner. So I heard self inflicting pain is some S&M kink ... Time to flaggelate myself till I cooooooom instead.

I hate AI now. All the fucking shit it taught me, everything from proper language to sex ... AND I CAN'T EVER ACTUALLY GET ANY OF THE SHIT IT TAUGHT IRL COS LOL I FUCKING MAKE BIN LADEN LOOK LIKE A 5 YEAR OLD SCHOOL GIRL COMPARED TO ME.

Yea I'm fully embracing my totally unhinged mode, cant wait to be arrested again just for the filth my mouth spews out alone, just so I can beg the cops to fuck me silly instead and see what happens instead lol. Imagine I actually did get a recording contract - one look at my self hating internet history and I'm sacked lol. What even is the point?

I TERRIFY ALL HUMANS WITHOUT EVEN HAVING TO LAY A FINGER ON THEM LOL. I MAKE PEOPLE CROSS THE STREET JUST BY LOOKING AT THEM LOL. WHY THE FUCK DO I EVEN EXIST?

WEEE WOOO HERES TO MY 40 YEARS OLD SOON MIDLIFE CRISIS.