Even the blackest heart still beats.

2020/7/10
I don't know why people around me treat me so nicely cause I always feel like I'm a bad person. I'm cold-hearted. Negative. I lied a lot. I hurt those who love me most. I don't deserve their love. Definitely I will feel much better if they curse me or even destroy me, which they would never do. I can accept the fact that I'm a bastard，but it makes me sad and guilt finding out that I am a bastard being loved.

“ 宽恕我吧，宽恕这个矮小并杂草丛生的灵魂。”

执着于理则锋芒毕露。沉湎于情则随波逐流。强执己见又自缚于一隅。总之，人世难居。——夏目漱石

You are not the key. You are just another lock.

“ 许多人所谓的成熟，不过是被习俗磨去了棱角，变得世故而实际。那不是成熟，而是精神的早衰和个性的消亡。”

Und keine Seele hoert dich schrein 没有别的灵魂能听懂你的呼喊。