RIP leia

I realized after being sent to a psych ward 5 times for obvious reasons, that the whole time, it was me. I was ventface. I was facefull. It was all me. I'm sorry for being so menacing but I developed these terrifying traits for my own reasons. There exists around us murderers by the thousands. They know how to seem normal. They aren't dumb, they KNOW how to...

I made these characters in an attempt to deny it could ever be me...But it was me.

I still love this addon. It's like walking through my mentally ill mind and seeing how my personalities clash. I only wish I could have polished it more and made it more unique than being a half life experience...

the song included reminded me of something i have heard before and made me find out HAWII part 2 thank you i guess lol

When things don't fall into place in a creative work, you either move on or force yourself to keep working at it and release something you aren't passionate about. I think you're doing the right thing. Looking forward to trying what you came up with and hopefully you find a new platform to bring your ideas to. Good luck!

My Mind is Awake map names are:
clinicofdreams.vmap (Continuation of the second map in mbid.)
gm_adventurers.vmap (literally recreated the adventures club map from gmod, yes)
painandcats.vmap (The craziest map, I love it)

I should still find a way to release these individually at least because I still feel like even though the story isn't there, the maps are still interesting and feel worth it to show people. Some locations I made are based off of actual dreams I had as a kid and they feel spot on to the feeling of the dream.
If I do manage to release them, don't play them expecting completely polished experiences. Play them expecting to see bits and pieces of a scrapped idea.
Funny though, the main story was meant to be a decent into madness and insanity. Which turned out to be my experience trying to create it.

So, it's obvious. This project is dead. The idea isn't though. I created 3 maps after this and they're fun, but the folder became 16gb and to upload it, i'd have to reorganize every asset manually and upload them as individual content addons. I didn't like how I was sticking with tedious half life alyx mechanics like scavenging and shooting the few enemies available. The story had no true aim because of that, and with how much time I was putting into it I felt like I just had to give up. All I really wanted though was a series of random maps that feel dreamlike and magical while still remaining horror, and trust me, I wanted to give people heart attacks with some of the horror ideas I had but never got around to making them. Full of eastereggs and I even tried introducing Leia as a character. It felt too awkward though, I was giving my deceased animal voice lines and it felt obsessive and inappropriate for the memory of her.

I don't usually post any comments, but this deserves it. This map was cool as hell, especially all of the changing sections, I would love to figure out how you did it lol

This is a damn good map, so good job on it! I can't wait for part II

really good map i luv

Good company, elements of horror and ambient are not intrusive and interesting to play through, I’m really looking forward to the continuation

Awesome mod. This is a worthy horror map that deserves the predicate "very scary"
I played it last night and it genuinely scared me - Ventface I hate you.
Amazing work on the custom props and the whole environment.
My playthrough: https://youtu.be/XEC5c5s6Rgw

genial.un 10

"every time you respawn his placement will be random"

Now we're talking! Looking forward to my first in-game heart attack :D

Well said, Joe. This map gave me legitimate anxiety while playing it, and that's a ringing endorsement from my perspective.

haha can't wait

I think there was one part where you flip a switch or something and the mannequin spawns beside you - that got me good.

But what REALLY got me was running into ventface the first couple times, I was not expecting something like that. The gameplay mechanic of not being allowed to stare at it was unsettling as hell, it definitely invoked some kind of primal fear of the unknown. There was a part where I exited the vent, felt a sense of relief, then realised I'd have to go back in.. it made me legitimately anxious and it didn't help that the vent was making demonic noises lol

I'm a fan of unique gameplay mechanics in HLA mods and I think you really nailed it here.

Very cool map! Love your use of music, it did a great job of conveying a "something isn't quite right" type of feeling. The mannequin and vent monster scared the crap out of me, so thanks for that :P

Also enjoyed playing as a combine and the unique gameplay elements, TBH I don't really think I disliked anything about this map.

What an awesome map, Well done!

Really good! I saw that it had weirdcore and horror elements, so I was a bit curious how it would fit in a Half-Life setting, but you managed to pull it off quite well. The horror was really well done, there were multiple parts where my hands were genuinely shaking (especially in the vents). The way the mannequins moved when I wasn't looking at them did catch me off guard a couple of times. All in all, a really well done and interesting mod. Can't wait for part 2!

That is incredibly generous and kind of you, I might message you some time, we'll see.

That's sweet. Reminds me of my two cats that died quite a long time ago. I still think of them sometimes.

Rip doggo

there's some weird annoying bug where sometimes custom sounds work and sometimes they don't. the metrcop in the beginning ALWAYS talks, remember that everyone. So make sure you install the content, make sure you enable it. and if the custom sounds don't work please report it to me, and if they do then that's chill.

What a unique experience in the world of HLA. Well done! My playthru:
https://youtu.be/hUVsLr-y6BU

After really examining the work that went into this. I've rated it a 10/10. Enjoy, everyone!

@iguanaman I posted the wrong link like a dope. Fixing it now and reposting my comment.

Why did my version look nothing like the one Skummeh posted? It started in bedroom with a policeman talking to me.

Please upload your playthroughs. I will watch every single one of them.